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f steel mesh which had been sold as a tea…strainer but now hung over a bowl of petrol。 I smiled ruefully。 The chamber was well ventilated with many small holes in the metal top and bottom of the glass tube； so that the wasp would not choke on the petrol fumes； a slight odour of petrol could usually be sensed when the Factory was primed； if you put your mind to it。 I could smell that petrol as I watched the wasp； and perhaps there was just a trace of drying paint in the atmosphere； too； though I couldn't be sure。 I shrugged to myself and pushed down on the chamber button； so that a length of dowling slid down its guide of aluminium tent…pole and came into contact with the wheel and gas…release mechanism on top of the disposable lighter poised over the pool of petrol。
It didn't even need a few tries to catch； it went first time； and the thin flames； still quite bright in the early gloom of the morning…lit loft； curled and licked about the open mesh of the strainer。 The flames did not go through； but the heat did； and the wasp flew up； buzzing angrily above the silent flames； bumping against the glass； falling back； hitting the side of the strainer； going over the edge； starting to fall into the flames； then flying back up again； knocking off the steel tube of the funnel a few times； then falling back into the steel…mesh trap。 It leaped up a final time； flew hopelessly for a few seconds； but its wings must have been singed； because it was crazily erratic in its flight and soon fell into the gauze bowl and died there； struggling； then curling； then staying still； smoking slightly。
I sat and watched the blackened insect bake and crisp； sat and watched the calm flames rise to the mesh and fan round it like a hand； sat and watched the reflection of the little quivering flames on the far side of the glass tube； then at last reached over； unclipped the base of the cylinder； slid the petrol…dish toward me under a metal cover and snuffed the fire。 I undid the top of the chamber and reached in with a pair of tweezers to remove the body。 I placed it in a matchbox and put that on the altar。
The Factory does not always give up its dead； the acid and the ants leave nothing； and the Venus fly…trap and the spider give back only a husk； if anything。 Again； though； I had a burned body； again I would have to do some disposing。 I put my head in my hands； rocking forward on the small stool。 The Factory surrounded me； the altar was at my back。 I gazed round the Factory's paraphernalia of places； its many ways to death； its crawlways and corridors and chambers； its lights at the ends of tunnels； its tanks and containers and hoppers； its triggers； its batteries and threads； supports and stands； tubes and wires。 I clicked a few switches； and tiny propellers whirred down branch…corridors； sending air sucked down vents over thimblefuls of jam and down towards the face。 I listened to them for a while； until I could smell jam myself； but that was to tempt slow wasps to their ends； and not for me。 I turned the motors off。
I started switching everything off； disconnecting； emptying and feeding。 The morning was growing stronger in the space beyond the skylights； and I could hear a couple of early birds calling in the new fresh air。 When the ritual standing…down of the Factory was pleted I went back to the altar； looking round it at all its parts； the assortment of miniature plinths and small jars； the souvenirs of my life； the previous things I've found and kept。 Photographs of all my dead relations； the ones I've killed and the ones that just died。 Photographs of the living： Eric； my father； my mother。 Photographs of things； a BSA 500 （not the bike； unfortunately； I think my father destroyed all the photographs of it）； the house when it was still bright with swirling paint； even a photograph of the altar itself。
I passed the matchbox containing the dead wasp over the altar； waved it around in front of it； before the jar of sand from the beach outside； the bottles of my precious fluids； a few shavings from my father's stick； another matchbox with a couple of Eric's first teeth set in cotton wool； a phial with some of my father's hair； another with some rust and paint scraped from the bridge to the mainland。 I lit wasp candles； closed my eyes； held the matchbox coffin in front of my forehead so that I could feel the wasp in there from inside my head； an itching； tickling sensation just inside my skull。 After that I blew the candles out； covered the altar； stood up； dusted down my cords； took up the photograph of Eric I'd placed on the glass of the Factory and wrapped the coffin in it； secured it with a rubber band and put the package in my jacket pocket。
I walked slowly along the beach towards the Bunker； my hands in my pockets； my head down； watching the sand and my feet but not really watching them。 Everywhere I turned there was fire。 The Factory had said it twice； I had turned to it instinctively when attacked by the rogue buck； and it was squeezed into every spare corner of my memory。 Eric brought it closer all the time； too。
I brought my face up to the sharp air and the pastel blues and pink of the new sky； feeling the damp breeze； hearing the hiss of the distant； outgoing tide。 Somewhere a sheep bleated。
I had to try Old Saul； I had to make the attempt to contact my mad； crazy brother before these many fires conjoined and swept Eric away； or swept my life on the island away。 I tried to pretend to myself that it might not really be that serious； but I knew in my bones it was； the Factory does not lie； and for once it had been paratively specific。 I was worried。
In the Bunker； with the wasp's coffin resting in front of Old Saul's skull and the light ing out through the sockets of his long…dried eyes； I knelt in the pungent darkness before the altar； head bowed。 I thought of Eric； I remembered him as he was before he had his unpleasant experience； when； although he had been away from the island； he was still really part of it。 I remembered him as the clever； kind； excitable boy he had been； and I thought of what he was now： a force of fire and disruption approaching the sands of the island like a mad angel； head swarming with echoing screams of madness and delusion。
I leaned forward and put my right hand palm down on the top of the old dog's cranium； keeping my eyes closed。 The candle was not long lit； and the bone was only warm。 Some unpleasant； cynical part of my mind told me that I looked like Mr Spock in Star Trek； doing a mind…meld or whatever； but I ignored it； that didn't matter anyway。 I breathed deeply； thought more deeply。 Eric's face swam in front of me； freckles and sandy hair and anxious smile。 A young face； thin and intelligent and young； the way I thought of him when I tried to remember him when he was happy； during our summers together on the island。
I concentrated； pressured my guts and held my breath； as though I was trying to force a turd out when constipated； the blood roared in my ears。 With my other hand I used forefinger and thumb to press my closed eyes into my own skull while my other hand grew hot on Old Saul's。 I saw lights； random patterns like spreading ripples or huge fingerprints； swirling。
I felt my stomach clench itself involuntarily and a wave of what felt like fiery excitement swept up from it。 Only acids and glands； I knew； but I felt it transport me； from one skull through another to another。 Eric！ I was getting through！ I could feel him； feel the aching feet； the blistered soles； the quivering legs； the sweat…stuck grimy hands； the itching； unwashed scalp； I could smell him as myself； see through those eyes that hardly closed and burned in his skull； raw and shot with blood； blinking drily。 I could feel the remains of some awful meal lying dead in my stomach； taste burned meat and bone and fur on my tongue； I was there！ I was…
A blast of fire crashed out at me。 I was thrown back； slammed away from the altar like a piece of soft shrapnel and bounced off the earth…covered concrete floor to e to rest by the far wall； my head buzzing； my right hand aching。 I fell over to one side and curled up around myself。
I lay breathing deeply for a while； hugging my sides and rocking very slightly； my head scraping on the floor of the Bunker。 My right hand felt as though it was the size and colour of a boxing…glove。 With every slowing beat of my heart it sent a pulse of pain up my arm。 I crooned to myself and slowly sat up； rubbing my eyes and still rocking very slightly； my knees and head ing a little closer； drawing slightly back。 I tried to nurse my battered ego back to health。
Across the Bunker； as the dim view swam back to focus； I could see the skull still glowing； the flame still burning。 I glared at it and brought my right hand up； started licking it。 I looked to see if my flight across the floor had damaged anything but as far as I could see everything was in its place； only I had been affected。 I gave a shivery sigh and relaxed； letting my head rest on the cool concrete of the wall behind me。
I leaned forward after a while and placed the palm of my hand； still thr