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ht。 He'd seen how crazy I'd been that night and turned my own hate against me。 And there was little Monica could have done about it。
What a bination； Amos and me。 But at least； he'd seen the light by himself。 No one had to hit him over the head with it。 And he'd tried to make up for it。 But I … I never even turned my head to seek the truth。 I'd been content to go along blaming the world for my own stupidity。 And I was the one who'd been at war with my father because I thought he didn't love me。 That was the biggest joke of all。
Now I could even face the truth in that。 It never had been his love that I'd doubted。 It had been my own。 For deep inside of me； I'd always known that I could never love him as much as he loved me。 I looked up at Nevada。 He was still leaning against the wall； but he wasn't smiling now。 〃You saw it； too？〃
〃Sure。〃 He nodded。 〃Everybody saw it … but you。〃
I closed my eyes。 Now I could see it。 It was like that morning in the hospital when I looked into the mirror and saw my father's face。 That was what I'd seen in Jo…Ann when I thought she looked so familiar this afternoon。 Her father's face。 My own。
〃What shall I do； Nevada？〃 I groaned。
〃What do yuh want to do； son？〃
〃I want them back。〃
〃Sure that's what you want？〃
I nodded。
〃Then get 'em back；〃 he said。 He looked at his watch。 〃There's still fifteen minutes before the train pulls out。〃
〃But how？ We'd never get there in time！〃
He gestured to the desk。 〃There's the phone。〃
I looked at him wildly； then hobbled to the phone。 I called the stationmaster's office at Reno and had them page her。 While I was waiting for her to e on； I looked at Nevada。 Suddenly； I was frightened； and when I'd been little； I'd always turned to Nevada when I was frightened。 〃What if she won't e back？〃
〃She'll e back；〃 he said confidently。 He smiled。 〃She's still in love with you。 That's something else everybody knew but you。〃
Then she was on the phone； her voice worried and anxious。 〃Jonas； are you all right？ Is there anything wrong？〃
For a moment； I couldn't speak； then I found my voice。 〃Monica；〃 I said。 〃Don't go！〃
〃But I have to； Jonas。 I have to be on the job by the end of the week。〃
〃Screw the job； I need you！〃
The line was silent； and for a moment； I thought she'd hung up。 〃Monica； are you there？〃
I heard her breathe in the receiver。 〃I'm still here； Jonas。〃
〃I've been wrong all the time。 I didn't know about Jo…Ann。 Believe me。〃 Again the silence。
〃Please； Monica！〃
Now she was crying。 I could hear her whispered voice in my ear。 〃Oh； Jonas； I've never stopped loving you。〃
I looked up at Nevada。 He smiled and went out； closing the door behind him。
I heard her sniffle； then her voice suddenly cleared and filled with the warm sound of love。 〃When Jo…Ann was a little girl she always wanted a baby brother。〃
〃Hurry home；〃 I said； 〃I'll do my best。〃
She laughed and there was a click as the line went dead in my hands。 I didn't put the phone down because I felt that as long as I held it； she was close to me。 I looked down at the photograph of my father on the desk。
〃Well； old man；〃 I said； asking his approval for the first time in my life； 〃did I do right？〃
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