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ne day。 In the meantime； there was so much information to gather； so many puzzles to solve。 Their house was the perfect place for Moiraine to find the information she needed。 Except that it was not there。
Movement caught her eye； and she turned。 Lan was lounging against the yellow brick fireplace； as imperturbable as a boulder。 〃Do you remember the first time we met； Lan？〃
She was watching for some sign； or she would not have seen the quick twitch of his eyebrow。 It was not often she caught him by surprise。 This was a subject neither of them ever mentioned； nearly twenty years ago she had told him … with all the stiff pride of one still young enough to be called young； she recalled … that she would never speak of it again and expected the same silence of him。
〃I remember；〃 was all he said。
〃And still no apology； I suppose？ You threw me into a pond。〃 She did not smile； though she could feel amusement at it； now。 〃Every stitch I had was soaked； and in what you Bordermen call new spring。 I nearly froze。〃
〃I recall I built a fire； too； and hung blankets so you could warm yourself in privacy。〃 He poked at the burning logs and returned the firetool to its hook。 Even summer nights were cool in the Borderlands。 〃I also recall that while I slept that night； you dumped half the pond on me。 It would have saved a great deal of shivering on both our parts if you had simply told me you were Aes Sedai rather than demonstrating it。 Rather than trying to separate me from my sword。 Not a good way to introduce yourself to a Borderman； even for a young woman。〃
〃I was young； and alone； and you were as large then as you are now； and your fierceness more open。 I did not want you to know I was Aes Sedai。 It seemed to me at the time you might answer my questions more freely if you did not know。〃 She fell silent for a moment； thinking of the years since that meeting。 It had been good to find a panion to join her in her quest。 〃In the weeks that followed； did you suspect that I would ask you to bond to me？ I decided you were the one in the first day。〃
〃I never guessed；〃 he said dryly。 〃I was too busy wondering if I could escort you to Chachin and keep a whole skin。 A different surprise you had for me every night。 The ants I recall in particular。 I don't think I had one good night's sleep that whole ride。〃
She permitted herself a small smile； remembering。 〃I was young；〃 she repeated。 〃And does your bond chafe after all these years？ You are not a man to wear a leash easily； even so light a one as mine。〃 It was a stinging ment； she meant it to be so。
〃No。〃 His voice was cool； but he took up the firetool again and gave the blaze a fierce poking it did not need。 Sparks cascaded up the chimney。 〃I chose freely； knowing what it entailed。〃 The iron rod clattered back onto its hook； and he made a formal bow。 〃Honor to serve； Moiraine Aes Sedai。 It has been and will be so； always。〃
Moiraine sniffed。 〃Your humility； Lan Gaidin； has always been more arrogance than most kings could manage with their armies at their backs。 From the first day I met you； it has been so。〃
〃Why all this talk of days past； Moiraine？〃
For the hundredth time … or so it seemed to her … she considered the words to use。 〃Before we left Tar Valon I made arrangements； should anything happen to me； for your bond to pass to another。〃 He stared at her； silent。 〃When you feel my death； you will find yourself pelled to seek her out immediately。 I do not want you to be surprised by it。〃
〃pelled；〃 he breathed softly； angrily。 〃Never once have you used my bond to pel me。 I thought you more than disapproved of that。〃
〃Had I left this thing undone； you would be free of the bond at my death； and not even my strongest mand to you would hold。 I will not allow you to die in a useless attempt to avenge me。 And I will not allow you to return to your equally useless private war in the Blight。 The war we fight is the same war； if you could only see it so； and I will see that you fight it to some purpose。 Neither vengeance nor an unburied death in the Blight will do。〃
〃And do you foresee your death ing soon？〃 His voice was quiet； his face expressionless； both like stone in a dead winter blizzard。 It was a manner she had seen in him many times； usually when he was on the point of violence。 〃Have you planned something； without me； that will see you dead？〃
〃I am suddenly glad there is no pond in this room；〃 she murmured； then raised her hands when he stiffened； offended at her light tone。 〃I see my death in every day； as you do。 How could I not； with the task we have followed these years？ Now； with everything ing to a head； I must see it as even more possible。〃
For a moment he studied his hands； large and square。 〃I had never thought；〃 he said slowly； 〃that I might not be the first of us to die。 Somehow； even at the worst； it always seemed 。。。〃 Abruptly he scrubbed his hands against each other。 〃If there is a chance I might be given like a pet lapdog； I would at least like to know to whom I am being given。〃
〃I have never seen you as a pet；〃 Moiraine said sharply； 〃and neither does Myrelle。〃
〃Myrelle。〃 He grimaced。 〃Yes； she would have to be Green； or else some slip of a girl just raised to full sisterhood。〃
〃If Myrelle can keep her three Gaidin in line； perhaps she has a chance to manage you。 Though she would like to keep you； I know； she has promised to pass your bond to another when she finds one who suits you better。〃
〃So。 Not a pet but a parcel。 Myrelle is to be a … a caretaker！ Moiraine； not even the Greens treat their Warders so。 No Aes Sedai has passed her Warder's bond to another in four hundred years； but you intend to do it to me not once； but twice！〃
〃It is done； and I will not undo it。〃
〃The Light blind me； if I am to be passed from hand to hand； do you at least have some idea in whose hand I will end？〃
〃What I do is for your own good； and perhaps it may be for another's； as well。 It may be that Myrelle will find a slip of a girl just raised to sisterhood … was that not what you said？ … who needs a Warder hardened in battle and wise in the ways of the world； a slip of a girl who may need someone who will throw her into a pond。 You have much to offer； Lan； and to see it wasted in an unmarked grave； or left to the ravens； when it could go to a woman who needs it would be worse than the sin of which the Whitecloaks prate。 Yes； I think she will have need of you。〃
Lan's eyes widened slightly； for him it was the same as another man gasping in shocked surmise。 She had seldom seen him so off balance。 He opened his mouth twice before he spoke。 〃And who do you have in mind for this … 〃
She cut him off。 〃Are you sure the bond does not chafe； Lan Gaidin？ Do you realize for the first time； only now； the strength of that bond； the depth of it？ You could end with some budding White； all logic and no heart； or with a young Brown who sees you as nothing more than a pair of hands to carry her books and sketches。 I can hand you where I will； like a parcel … or a lapdog … and you can do no more than go。 Are you sure it does not chafe？〃
〃Is that what this has been for？〃 he grated。 His eyes burned like blue fire； and his mouth twisted。 Anger； for the first time ever that she had seen； open anger etched his face。 〃Has all this talk been a test … a test！ … to see if you could make my bond rub？ After all this time？ From the day I pledged to you； I have ridden where you said ride； even when I thought it foolish； even when I had reason to ride another way。 Never did you need my bond to force me。 On your word I have watched you walk into danger and kept my hands at my sides when I wanted nothing more than to out sword and carve a path to safety for you。 After this； you test me？〃
〃Not a test； Lan。 I spoke plainly； not twisting； and I have done as I said。 But at Fal Dara； I began to wonder if you were still wholly with me。〃 A wariness entered his eyes。 Lan； forgive me。 I would not have cracked the walls you hold so hard； but I must know。 〃Why did you do as you did with Rand？〃 He blinked； it was obviously not what he expected。 She knew what he had thought was ing； and she would not let up now that he was off balance。 〃You brought him to the Amyrlin speaking and acting as a Border lord and a soldier born。 It fit； in a way； with what I planned for him； but you and I never spoke of teaching him any of that。 Why； Lan？〃
〃It seemed 。。。 right。 A young wolfhound must meet his first wolf someday； but if the wolf sees him as a puppy； if he acts the puppy； the wolf will surely kill him。 The wolfhound must be a wolfhound in the wolf's eyes even more than in his own； if he is to survive。〃
〃Is that how you see Aes Sedai？ The Amyrlin？ Me？ Wolves out to pull down your young wolfhound？〃 Lan shook his head。 〃You know what he is； Lan。 You know what he must bee。 Must。 What I have worked for since the day you and I met； and before。 Do you now doubt what I do？〃
〃No。 No； but 。。。〃 He was recovering himself； building his walls again。 But they were not rebuilt yet。 〃How many times have you said that ta'veren pull those around the