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as concerned。
I held my hands up to both of them。 I never asked for help to stand unless I was bleeding or something was broken。 The two of them exchanged glances； then they held their hands out to me； again in perfect unison； like choreographed dancers who knew what the other would do。
They could feel my desire； but that had always been there； it told them nothing。 I took their hands and let them lift me up。 They were both still looking unsure； almost suspicious； as if they were waiting for me to recoil from them and run screaming from the intimacy of it all。 I had to smile。 〃If we can get everyone all tucked in safe and sound before dawn； all things will be possible。〃
They exchanged another look between them。 Jean…Claude made a small movement； as if encouraging Richard。 It was a tiny； almost…push with his head； as if to say； Go ahead； ask。 Normally； seeing them plot behind my back pissed me off； but not that night。
〃Do you mean 。。。 〃 Richard let the thought trail off。
I nodded； and Richard's hand tightened on mine。 Jean…Claude's hand was strangely quiet in mine。 〃You do realize； ma petite； that this new 。。。 〃 he hesitated； 〃willingness； may be a by…product of joining the marks tonight。 I don't wish you to accuse us later of trickery。〃
〃I know what it is； and I don't care。〃 I should have； but I didn't。 It was like being drunk； or drugged； and even thinking that made no difference。
I was looking at Jean…Claude； and I saw him let out the breath he'd been holding。 I felt Richard do the same。 It was as if a great weight had been taken from both of them。 And I knew that I was that burden。 I'd try not to be a burden from now on。 〃Let's get this over with and go get the leopards；〃 I said。
Jean…Claude raised my hand to his mouth； brushing the knuckles across his lips。 〃And be gone from this place。〃
I nodded。 〃And be gone from this place；〃 I said。
6
I'D BEEN PLAINING to Jean…Claude for years that his decorating scheme was too monochromatic； but one look at Narcissus's bedroom and I knew I owed Jean…Claude an apology。 The room was done in black； and I mean black。 The walls； the hardwood floor； the drawn drapes against one wall； the bed。 The only color in the room was the silver chains and the silver…colored implements hanging from the wall。 The color of the steel seemed to accentuate the blackness rather than relieve it。 Chains dangled from the ceiling above the huge bed。 It was bigger than king…sized。 The only term that came to mind was orgy…sized。 The bed was four…postered； with the largest； heaviest； darkest wood I'd ever seen。 More chains dangled from the four posts； set in heavy permanent rings。 If I'd been on a date； I'd have turned and run for it。 But this wasn't a date； and in we all trooped。
My understanding about most people who were into D and S was that their bedrooms were separate from their 〃dungeons。〃 Nearby perhaps； but not the same room。 You needed somewhere to go to actually sleep。 Maybe Narcissus just never rested from the fun and games。
There was a door in the opposite wall； and the drapes were drawn over the middle of one wall。 Maybe his real bed was behind door number two or the drapes。 I hoped so。
The only chair in the room had straps attached to it； so Narcissus offered us the bed to sit on。 I don't know if I would have sat down or not； but first Jean…Claude； then Richard did。 Jean…Claude settled against the black bedspread as he did everything； with grace； settling his body against the pillows as if he felt utterly fortable。 But it was Richard who surprised me。 I expected to see in him some of the disfort I felt about the room； but he didn't seem in the least unfortable。 In fact； I realized for the first time that the heavy leather cuffs at his wrists and the collar at his throat had metal hooks in them； so they could be attached to chains or a leash。 He'd probably worn them so he could blend into the club scene； as I'd worn the boots。 But 。。。 but I could feel that he was calm about the room and everything in it。 I wasn't。
I looked at Jean…Claude and Richard and knew I'd decided to sleep with both of them tonight； however we arranged it。 But seeing them on the bed in the middle of all this； watching them at home in it； made me wonder about my decision。 It made me think that maybe； after all this time； I still didn't know what I was getting myself into。
Asher was wandering the room looking at the things on the wall。 I couldn't read him like I could read the others； but he； too； seemed unruffled； and I didn't think it was an act。 Narcissus had swept into the room with Ajax at his back。 He'd agreed to leave everyone else in the hallway； or downstairs； in exchange for us leaving our extra wolves outside the room。 I guess for true privacy you did need less than a double digit worth of people in a room。
Richard held his hand out to me。 〃It's okay； Anita。 Nothing in this room can hurt you without your permission； and you're not going to give that。〃 That wasn't exactly the forting ment I'd wanted； but I guess it was the truth。 I used to believe that truth was good； but I'd begun to realize that it is neither good； nor bad。 It's just the truth。 Life had been simpler when I believed in black…and…white absolutes。
I took his hand and let him draw me to the bed； between Jean…Claude and himself。 Well； Narcissus had already made a play for Jean…Claude； so I guess we needed to make the hands…off point。 But it still bothered me that Richard put me between them； not simply beside him。 The warm； fuzzy feeling I'd had from the marriage of the marks seemed to be receding at an alarming rate。 Magic does that sometimes。
I felt stiff and unfortable on the black bed between my two men。 〃What is wrong； ma petite？ You are suddenly very tense。〃
I looked at Jean…Claude； raising my eyebrows。 〃Am I the only one here that doesn't like this room？〃
〃Jean…Claude liked this room very much； once；〃 Narcissus said。
I turned and looked at the werehyena as he paced the room in his stocking feet。 〃What do you mean？〃 I asked。
Jean…Claude answered； 〃Once； I submitted to unwanted advances because I was told to do so。 But those days are past。〃
I stared at him； and he wouldn't meet my gaze。 His eyes were all for Narcissus； as the other man paced around the bed。
〃I don't remember you being unwilling；〃 Narcissus said。 He leaned against the far post of the bed。
〃I learned long ago to make a virtue of necessity；〃 Jean…Claude said。 〃Besides； Nikolaos； the old Master of the City； sent me to you。 You remember now she was； Narcissus。 Refusal of an order was not allowed。〃
I'd had the horror of meeting Nikolaos personally。 She had been very； very scary。
〃So I was an unpleasant duty。〃 He sounded angry。
Jean…Claude shook his head。 〃Your body is pleasant； Narcissus。 What you like doing with your lovers； if they can take the damage； is not 。。。 〃 Jean…Claude looked down as if searching for the right word； then raised his midnight blue eyes to Narcissus； and I saw the effect that his gaze had on the shapeshifter。 Narcissus looked like he'd been hit between the eyes with a hammer a handsome； charming hammer。
〃Is not what？〃 Narcissus asked； his voice hoarse。
〃Is not to my taste；〃 Jean…Claude said。 〃Besides； I must not have pleased you very much； for you did not do what my late master wished you to do。〃
I was the reason that Nikolaos was the late Master of the City。 She'd been trying to kill me； and I'd gotten lucky。 She was dead； I wasn't。 And now Jean…Claude got to be Master of the City。 I hadn't planned that。 How much of it Jean…Claude had planned was still up for debate。 It is not just prejudice on my part that makes me trust him less than Richard。
Narcissus put one knee on the bed； one hand still around the bedpost。 〃You pleased me very much。〃 The look on his face was too intimate。 They should have been alone for this conversation。 But； then again； watching the way Narcissus looked at Jean…Claude； maybe that wouldn't have been such a great idea。 From Jean…Claude all I sensed was a desire to soothe any injured feelings。 But I was betting if I could peek inside Narcissus's head I'd find a different kind of desire。
〃Nikolaos thought I failed her and punished me for it。〃
〃I could not ally myself with her not even for you as my permanent toy。〃
Jean…Claude raised an eyebrow at that。 〃I do not remember that being part of the deal。〃
〃When I first told her no； she sweetened the offer。〃 Narcissus crawled onto the bed。 He stayed crouched on all fours； as if he were expecting someone to e up behind him。
〃In what way did she sweeten the offer？〃
Narcissus started to crawl across the bed； slowly； his knees catching on the hem of his dress as he moved。 〃She offered you to me for always； to do with as I wished。〃
A thrill of terror ran through me from my toes to the top of my head。 It took me a second to realize it wasn't my fear。 Richard and I both turned to Jean…Claude。 His face showed nothing。 It was his usual polite； attractive； almost bored mask。 But we could both feel the cold； screaming terror in his mind at the thought of how close he'd e to being Narcissus's permanent 。。。 guest。
It filled him with a fear that was larger than the shapeshifter。 Images flashed thr