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He produced 〃This；〃 in the form of his pipe。 We left the room at once for
our stroll in the garden。
Having solaced himself with his first mouthful of tobacco…smoke； he
startled me by announcing that he meant to remove Lucilla forthwith from
Dimchurch to the sea…side。 In doing this； he was actuated by two
motivesfirst； the medical motive of strengthening her constitution：
second； the personal motive of preserving her from making painful
discoveries by placing her out of reach of the gossip of the rectory and
the village。 Grosse had the lowest opinion of Mr。 Finch and his
household。 His dislike and distrust of the rector； in particular； knew no
bounds： he characterized the Pope of Dimchurch as an Ape with a long
tongue； and a man…and…monkey capacity for doing mischief。 Ramsgate was
the watering…place which he had fixed on。 It was at a safe distance from
Dimchurch； and it was near enough to London to enable him to visit
Lucilla frequently。 The one thing needed was my co…operation in the new
plan。 If I was at liberty to take charge of Lucilla； he would speak to
the Ape with the long tongue； and we might start for Ramsgate before the
end of the week。
Was there anything to prevent me from carrying out the arrangement
proposed？
There was nothing to prevent me。 My one other anxiety apart from
Lucillaanxiety about good Papahad now； for some time； been happily
set at rest。 Letter after letter from my sisters in France； brought me
always the same cheering news。 My evergreen parent had at last discovered
that he was no longer in the first bloom of his youth。 He had resigned to
his juniors； with pathetic expressions of regret； the making of love and
the fighting of duels。 Ravaged by past passions； this dear innocent had
now found a refuge from swords； pistols； and the sex； in collecting
butterflies and playing on the guitar。 I was free wholly to devote myself
to Lucilla； and I honestly rejoiced in the prospect before me。 Alone with
her； and away from the rectory （where there was always danger off gossip
reaching her ears） I could rely on myself to protect her from harm in the
present； and to preserve her for Oscar in the future。 With all my heart I
agreed to the arrangements as Grosse proposed them。 When we parted in the
garden； he went round to the rector's side of the house to announce （in
his medical capacity） the decision at which he had arrivedwhile I； on
my side； went back to Lucilla to make the best excuses that I could
invent for Oscar； and to prepare her for our speedy removal from
Dimchurch。
〃Gone； without coming to say good…bye！ Gone； without even writing to me！〃
There was the first impression I produced on her； when I had done my best
to account harmlessly for Oscar's absence。 I had； as I thought； taken the
shortest and simplest way out of the difficulty； by merely inverting the
truth。 In other words； by telling her that Nugent had got into some
serious embarrassment abroad； and that Oscar had been called away at a
moment's notice； to follow him and help him。 It was in vain that I
reminded her of Oscar's well…known horror of leave…takings of all kinds；
in vain that I represented the urgency of the matter as leaving him no
alternative but to confide his excuses and his farewells to me； in vain
that I promised for him that he would write to her at the first
opportunity。 She listened； without conviction。 The more perseveringly I
tried to account for it； the more perseveringly she dwelt on Oscar's
unaccountable disregard of her claims on his consideration for her。 As
for our journey to Ramsgate； it was impossible to interest her in the
subject。 I gave it up in despair。
〃Surely Oscar has left some address at which I can write to him？〃 she
said。
I could only answer that he was not sure enough of his movements to be
able to do that before he went away。
〃It is more provoking than you think；〃 she went on。 〃I believe Oscar is
afraid to bring his unfortunate brother into my presence。 The blue face
startled me when I saw it； I know。 But I have quite got over that。 I feel
none of the absurd terror of the poor man which I felt when I was blind。
Now that I have seen for myself what he is really like； I can feel for
him。 I wanted to tell Oscar thisI wanted to say that he might bring his
brother to live with us if he likedI wanted to prevent （just what has
happened；） his going away from _me_ when he wishes to see his brother。
You are using me very hardly among you； and I have some reason to
complain of it。〃
While she was talking in this mortifying manner； I felt some consolation
nevertheless。 Oscar's disfigured complexion would not be the terrible
obstacle in the way of his restoration to Lucilla that I had feared。 All
the comfort which this reflection could give； I wanted badly enough。
There was no open hostility towards me on Lucilla's partbut there was a
coolness which I found more distressing to bear than hostility itself。 I
breakfasted in bed the next morning； and only rose towards noonjust in
time to say good…bye to Grosse before he returned to London。
He was in high good spirits about his patient。 Her eyes were the better
instead of the worse for the exertion to which he had subjected them on
the previous day。 The bracing air of Ramsgate was all that was wanting to
complete the success of the operation。 Mr。 Finch had started objections；
all turning on the question of expense。 But with a daughter who was her
own mistress； and who had her own fortune； his objections mattered
nothing。 By the next day； or the day after at latest； we were to start
for Ramsgate。 I promised to write to our good surgeon as soon as we were
established； and he engaged on his side； to visit us immediately after。
〃Let her use her eyes for two goot hours every day；〃 said Grosse； at
parting。 〃She may do what she likes with themexcept that she must not
peep into books； or take up pens； till I come to you at Ramsgate。 It is
most wonderful…beautiful to see how those new eyes of hers do get along。
When I next meet goot Mr。 Sebrightshey！ how I shall cock…crow over that
spick…span respectable man！〃
I felt a little nervous as to how the day would passwhen the German
left me alone with Lucilla。
To my amazement； she not only met me with the needful excuses for her
behavior on the previous day； but showed herself to be perfectly resigned
to the temporary loss of Oscar's society。 It was she （not I） who remarked
that he could not have chosen a better time for being away from her； than
the humiliating time when she was learning to distinguish between round
and square。 It was she （not I） who welcomed the little journey to
Ramsgate as a pleasant change in her dull life； which would help to
reconcile her to Oscar's absence。 In brief； if she had actually received
a letter from Oscar； relieving her of all anxiety about him； her words
and looks could hardly have offered a completer contrast than they now
showed to her words and looks of the previous day。
If I had noticed no other alteration in her than this welcome change for
the better； my record of the day would have ended here； as the record of
unmixed happiness。
But； I grieve to say； I have something unpleasant to add。 While she was
making her excuses to me； and speaking in the sensible and satisfactory
terms which I have just repeated； I noticed a curious underlying
embarrassment in her manner； entirely unlike any previous embarrassment
which had ever intruded itself between us。 And； stranger still； on the
first occasion when Zillah came into the room； while I was in it； I
observed that Lucilla's embarrassment was reflected （when the old woman
spoke to me） in the face and manner of Lucilla's nurse。
But one conclusion could possibly follow from what I saw：they were both
concealing something from me； and they were both more or less ashamed of
what they were doing。
Somewherenot very far back in these pagesI have said of myself that I
am not by nature a woman who is easily ready to suspect others。 On this
very account； when I find suspicion absolutely forced on meas it was
nowI am apt to fly into the opposite extreme。 In the present case； I
fixed on the person to suspectall the more readily from having been
slow to suspect him in bygone days。 〃In some way or other；〃 I said to
myself； 〃Nugent Dubourg is at the bottom of this。〃
Was he communicating with her privately； in the name and in the character
of Oscar？
The bare idea of it hurried me headlong into letting her know that I had
noticed the change in her。
〃Lucilla！〃 I said。 〃Has anything happened？〃
〃What do you mean？〃 she asked coldly。
〃I fancy I see some change〃 I began。
〃I don't understand you；〃 she answered； walking away from me as she
spoke。
I said no more。 If our intimacy had been less close and less
affectionate； I might have openly avowed to her what was passing in my
mind。 But how could I say to Lucilla； You are deceiving me？ It would have
been the end of our sisterhoodthe end of our friendship。 When
confidence is withdrawn between two people who love each
othereverything is withdrawn。 They are on the footing of strangers from
that moment； and must stand on ceremony。 Delicate minds will understand