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se me； Maggie； as much as you like。〃
The strange thing was that as Maggie listened to this she felt a desire to embrace rather than curse。 Of course Caroline had done her harm； she had； perhaps ruined Martin's life as well as her own； but the mistake had been originally Maggie's in trusting Caroline with more confidence than her volatile nature would allow her to hold。 And now； as she looked at Caroline and saw that pretty pink and white face； the slim beautiful body； the grace and gaiety； and childish amiability； her whole soul responded。 Here was a friend； even though an indiscreet one； here was some one from home； the one human being in the whole of Skeaton who knew the old places and the old people； the Chapel； and the auntsand Martin。 She knew at once that it would have been far safer had Caroline not been there； that the temptation to discuss Martin would be irresistible； that she would yield to it； and that Caroline was in no way whatever to be trusted…she realised all these things； and yet she was glad。
〃I don't want to curse you； Caroline；〃 said Maggie。 〃Sit down。 Tea will be here in a minute。 I was very unhappy about what you did； but that's all a long time ago now； and I was to blame too。〃
〃Oh； that's just sweet of you；〃 said Caroline； running over and giving Maggie an impulsive kiss。 〃I said to Alfred； 'Maggie may be angry。 I don't know how she'll receive me； I'm sure。 She had the sweetest nature always； and it isn't like her to bear a grudge。 But whatever way it is； I'll have to take it； because the fact is I deserve it。' But there you are； simply angelic and I'm ever so glad。 The fact is I was ridicilous in those days。 I don't wonder you lost your patience with me； and it was just like your honest self to be so frank with me。 But marriage has just taught me everything。 What I say is； every one ought to be married； no one knows anything until they're married。 It's amazing what a difference it makes； don't you think so？ Why； before I was married I used to chatter on in the most ridicilous way （Caroline always said ridicilous） and now…but there I go； talking of myself； and it's you I want to hear about。 Now； Maggie； tell me〃 But the sudden entrance of Grace and Paul checked； for the moment； these confidences。 Caroline did not stay long this first time。 She talked a little； drank some tea； ate a biscuit； smiled at Paul and departed。 She felt； perhaps； that Grace did not approve of her。 Grace had not seen her before； certainly she would not approve of the peach…coloured dress and the smile at Paul。 And then the girl talked too much。 She had interrupted Grace in the middle of one of her stories。
When Caroline had departed （after kissing Maggie affectionately） Grace said：
〃And so you knew her before； Maggie？〃
〃I knew her in London；〃 said Maggie。
〃I like her；〃 said Paul。 〃A bright young creature。〃
〃Hum！〃 said Grace。
That was a wonderful spring evening； the first spring evening of the year。 The ugly garden swam in a mist faintly cherry…colour； through the mist a pale evening sky； of so rich a blue that it was almost white； was shadowing against a baby moon sharply gold。 The bottles on the wall were veiled by the evening mist； a thrush sang in the little bush at the end of the lawn。
Paul whispered to Maggie： 〃Come out into the garden。〃
She went with him； frightened； she could feel his arm tremble against her waist； his cold hard fingers caught hers。 No current ran from her body to his。 They were apart； try as she may。 When they had walked the length of the lawn he caught her close to him； put his hand roughly up to her neck and； bending her head towards his； kissed her。 She heard his words； strangled and fierce。
〃Love me； Maggie…love me…you must〃
When he released her； looking back towards the dark house； she saw Grace standing there with a lamp in her hand。
Against her will she shared his feeling of guilt； as； like children caught in a fault； they turned back towards the house。
CHAPTER V
THE BATTLE OF SKEATON
FIRST YEAR
Afterwards； when Maggie looked back she was baffled。 She tried to disentangle the events between that moment when Grace； holding the lamp in her hand； blinked at them as they came across the lawn； and that other most awful moment when； in Paul's study； Grace declared final and irrevocable war。
Between those two events ran the history of more than two years； and there was nothing stranger than the way that the scene in the garden and the scene in the study seemed to Maggie to be close together。 What were the steps； she used to ask herself afterwards； that led to those last months of fury and tragedy and disaster？ Was it my fault？ Was it hers？ Was it Paul's？ What happened？ If I had not done this or that； if Grace had not saidno； it was hopeless。 She would break off in despair。 Isolated scenes appeared before her； always bound； on either side； by that prologue and that finale； but the scenes would not form a chain。 She could not connect； she would remain until the end bewildered as to Grace's motives。 She never； until the day of her death； was to understand Grace。
〃She was angry for such little things；〃 she said afterwards。
〃She hated me to be myself。〃 The two years in retrospect seemed to have passed with incredible swiftness； the months that followed them were heavy and slow with trouble。 But from the very first； that is； from the moment when Grace saw Paul kiss Maggie in the evening garden； battle was declared。 Maggie might not know it； but it was so…and Grace knew it very well。
It may be said； however； in Grace's defence that she gave Maggie every chance。 She marvelled at her own patience。 For two years after that moment； when she decided that Maggie was 〃queer；〃 and that her beloved Paul was in real danger of his losing his soul because of that 〃queerness；〃 she held her hand。 She was not naturally a patient woman…she was not introspective enough to be thatand she held no brief for Maggie。 Nevertheless for two whole years she held her hand 。 。 。
They were； all three； in that ugly house； figures moving in the dark。 Grace simply knew； as the months passed； that she disliked and feared Maggie more and more； Paul knew that as the months passed… well； what he knew will appear in the following pages。 And Maggie？ She only knew that it needed all her endurance and stubborn will to force herself to accept this life as her life。 She must…she must。 To give way meant to run away； and to run away meant to long for what she could not have； and loneliness and defeat。 She would make this into a success； she would care for Paul although she could not give him all that he needed。 She would and she could 。 。 。 Every morning as she lay awake in the big double…bed with the brass knobs at the bed…foot winking at her in the early light she vowed that she would justify her acceptance of the man who lay sleeping so peacefully beside her。 Poor child； her battle with Grace was to teach her how far her will and endurance could carry her 。 。 。
Grace； on her side； was not a bad woman； she was simply a stupid one。 She disliked Maggie for what seemed to her most admirable reasons and； as that dislike slowly； slowly turned into hatred； her self…justification only hardened。
Until that moment； when she saw a faded patch of wall…paper on the wall instead of her mother's portrait； she had no doubts whatever about the success of what she considered her choice。 Maggie was a 〃dear；〃 young； ignorant； helpless； but the very wife for Paul。 Then slowly； slowly； the picture changed。 Maggie was obstinate； Maggie was careless； Maggie was selfish； idle； lazy； irreligious…at last； Maggie was 〃queer。〃
Then； when in the dusk of that summer evening； she saw Paul kiss Maggie； as the moths blundered about her lamp； her stolid unimaginative heart was terrified。 This girl； who was she？ What had she been before they found her？ What was this strange passion in Paul isolating him from her； his sister？ This girl was dangerous to them all…a heathen。 They had made a terrible mistake。 Paul had been from the first bewitched by some strange spell； and the； his sister； had aided the witch。
And yet； to her credit be it remembered； for two years； she fought her fears； superstitions； jealousies； angers。 That can have been no easy thing for a woman who had always had her own way。 But Maggie helped her。 There were many days during that first year at any rate when Grace thought that the girl was； after all； only the simple harmless child that she had first found her。
It was so transparently clear that Maggie bore no malice against any one in the world； that when she angered Grace she did so always by accident； never by plan…it was only unfortunate that the accidents should occur so often。
Maggie's days were from the very first of the utmost regularity。 Breakfast at 8。30； then an interview with the cook （Grace generally in attendance here）； then shopping （with Grace）； luncheon at 1。30； afternoon； paying calls or receiving them； dinner 7。45； and after dinner； reading a book while Paul and Grace played bezique； or； if Paul was busy upon a sermon or a letter （he wrote letters very slowly）； patience with Grace。 This regular day was varied with meetings； choir practices； dinner…parties； and an occasio