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side of a fountain�察�Nicias studied�察�on an armillary sphere�察�the harmonious
movements of the stars。
Then a veiled woman approached the monk�察 �holding in her hand a
branch of myrtle。 She said to him
;Look� �Some seek eternal beauty�察�and place their ephemeral life in the
infinite。 Others live without much thought。 But by that alone they submit
to fair Nature�察�and they are happy and beautiful in the joy of living only�察�
and give glory to the supreme artist of all things�察�for man is a noble hymn
to God。 All think that happiness is innocent�察�and that pleasure is permitted
to man。 Paphnutius�察�if they are right�察�what a dupe you have been� ─�
And the vision vanished。
Thus was Paphnutius tempted unceasingly in body and mind。 Satan
never gave him a minute's repose。 The solitude of the tomb was more
peopled than the streets of a great city。 The devils shouted with laughter�察�
and millions of imps�察 �evil genii�察 �and phantoms imitated all the ordinary
transactions of life。 In the evening�察�when he went to the spring�察�satyrs and
nymphs capered round him�察 �and tried to drag him into their lascivious
dances。 The demons no longer feared him。 They loaded him with insults�察�
obscene jests�察�and blows。 One day a devil�察�no longer than his arm�察�stole the
cord he wore round his waist。
He said to himself
;Thought�察�whither hast thou led me�拭─�
And he resolved to work with his hands�察�in order to give his mind that
rest of which it had need。 Near the spring�察�some banana trees�察�with large
leaves�察�grew under the shade of the palms。 He cut the stalks�察�and carried
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them to the tomb。 He crushed them with a stone�察 �and reduced them to
fibres�察�as he had seen ropemakers do。 For he intended to make a cord�察�to
replace that which the devil had stolen。 The demons were somewhat
displeased at this�察�they ceased their clamour�察�and the girl with the theorbo
no longer continued her magic arts�察�but remained quietly on the wall。 The
courage and faith of Paphnutius increased whilst he pounded the banana
stems。
;With Heaven's help�察─�he said to himself�察 �I shall subdue the flesh。 As
to my soul�察�its confidence is still unshaken。 In vain do the devils�察�and that
accursed woman�察�try to instil into my mind doubts as to the nature of God。
I will reply to them�察�by the mouth of the Apostle John�察�'In the beginning
was the Word�察 �and the Word was God。' That I firmly believe�察 �and that
which I believe is absurd�察�I believe still more firmly。 In fact it should be
absurd。 If it were not so�察�I should not believe�察�I should know。 And it is not
that which we know which gives eternal life�察�it is faith only that saves。;
He exposed the separated fibres to the sun and the dew�察 �and every
morning he took care to turn them�察�to prevent them rotting�察�and he rejoiced
to find that he had become as simple as a child。 When he had twisted his
cord�察 �he cut reeds to make mats and baskets。 The sepulchral chamber
resembled a basket´maker's workshop�察�and Paphnutius could pass without
difficulty from work to prayer。 Yet still God was not merciful to him�察�for
one night he was awakened by a voice which froze him with horror�察�for he
guessed that it was the voice of the dead man。
The voice called quickly�察�in a light whisper
;Helen� �Helen� �come and bathe with me� �come quickly� ─�
A woman�察�whose mouth was close to the monk's ear�察�replied
;Friend�察�I cannot rise�察�a man is lying on me。;
Paphnutius suddenly perceived that his cheek rested on a woman's
breast。 He recognised the player of the theorbo�察�who�察�partly relieved of his
weight�察�raised her breast。 He clung tightly to the sweet�察�warm�察�perfumed
body�察�and consumed with the desire of damnation�察�he cried
;Stay�察�stay�察�my heavenly one� ─�
But she was already standing on the threshold。 She laughed�察�and her
smile gleamed in the silver rays of the moon。
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;Why should I stay�拭─�she said。 ;The shadow of a shadow is enough for
a lover endowed with such a lively imagination。 Besides�察�you have sinned。
What more was needed�拭─�
Paphnutius wept in the night�察�and when the dawn came�察�he murmured
a prayer that was a meek complaint
;Jesus�察�my Jesus�察�why hast Thou forsaken me� �Thou seest the danger
in which I am。 Come�察�and help me�察�sweet Saviour。 Since Thy Father no
longer loves me�察�and does not hear me�察�remember that I have but Thee。
From Him nothing is to be hoped�察 �I cannot comprehend Him�察 �and He
cannot pity me。 But Thou was born of a woman�察�and that is why I trust in
Thee。 Remember that Thou wast a man。 I pray to Thee�察�not because Thou
art God of God�察�Light of light�察�very God of very God�察�but because Thou
hast lived poor and humble on this earth where now I suffer�察�because Satan
has tempted Thy flesh�察�because the sweat of agony has bedewed Thy face。
It is to Thy humanity that I pray�察�Jesus�察�my brother Jesus� ─�
When he had thus prayed�察 �wringing his hands�察 �a terrible peal of
laughter shook the walls of the tomb�察�and the voice which rang in his ears
on the top of the column�察�said jeeringly
;That is a prayer worthy of the breviary of Marcus�察 �the heretic。
Paphnutius is an Arian� �Paphnutius is an Arian� ─�
As though thunderstruck�察�the monk fell senseless。
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When he reopened his eyes�察�he saw around him monks wearing black
hoods�察 �who poured water on his temples�察 �and recited exorcisms。 Many
others were standing outside�察�carrying palm leaves。
;As we passed through the desert�察─�said one of them�察 �we heard cries
issuing from this tomb�察 �and�察 �having entered�察 �we found you lying
unconscious on the floor。 Doubtless the devils had thrown you down�察�and
had fled at our approach。;
Paphnutius�察�raising his head�察�asked in a feeble voice
;Who are you�察 �my brothers�拭 �And why do you carry palms in your
hands�拭�Is it for my burial�拭─�
One of them replied
;Brother�察 �do you not know that our father�察�Anthony�察 �now a hundred
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and five years old�察�having been warned of his approaching end�察�has come
down from Mount Colzin�察�to which he had retired�察�to bless his numerous
spiritual children�拭�We are going with palm leaves to greet our holy father。
But how is it�察�brother�察�that you are ignorant of such a great event�拭�Can it
be possible that no angel came to this tomb to inform you�拭─�
;Alas� ─�replied Paphnutius�察 �I am not worthy of such a favour�察�and the
only denizens of this abode are demons and vampires。 Pray for me。 I am
Paphnutius�察�Abbot of Antinoe�察�the most wretched of the servants of God。;
At the name of Paphnutius�察�all waved their palm leaves and murmured
his praises。 The monk who had previously spoken�察�cried in surprise
;Can it be that thou art that holy Paphnutius�察�celebrated for so many
works that it was supposed he would some day equal the great Anthony
himself�拭 �Most venerable�察 �it was thou who convertedst to God the
courtesan�察�Thais�察�and who�察�raised upon a high column�察�was carried away
by the seraphs。 Those who watched by night�察�at the foot of the pillar�察�saw
thy blessed assumption。 The wings of the angels encircled thee in a white
cloud�察�and with thy right hand extended thou didst bless the dwellings of
man。 The next day�察�when the people saw thou wert no longer there�察�a long
groan rose to the summit of the discrowned pillar。 But Flavian�察�thy disciple�察�
reported the miracle�察�and took thy place as the head。 But a foolish man�察�of
the name of Paul�察�tried to contradict the general opinion。 He asserted that
he had seen thee�察 �in a dream�察 �carried away by the devils�察 �the people
wanted to stone him�察 �and it was a miracle that he escaped death。 I am
Zozimus�察�abbot of these solitary monks whom thou seest prostrate at thy
feet。 Like them�察�I kneel before thee�察�that thou mayest bless the father with
the children。 Then thou shalt relate to us the marvels which God has
deigned to accomplish by thy means。;
;Far from having favoured me as thou believest�察─�replied Paphnutius�察�
;the Lord has tried me with terrible temptations。 I was not carried away by
angels。 Bu