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any person on earth�察 �but it seemed only to pique her�察 �and I think she
determined then and there to make herself an exception to this universal
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rule。 This is how I came to marry your mother。 There was not the
slightest community of thought�察�sentiment�察�or interest between us。 The
things I liked did not interest her�察�what she liked bored me�察�yet she was
pre´eminently a sensible woman�察 �and when she learned the real state of
affairs was the first to suggest a separation�察 �which was effected。 We
parted with the kindliest feelings�察�and�察�as you know�察�remained fast friends
up to her death。
It was nearly a year after the affair on Malabar Hill before I had the
heart to return with your mother to Bombay。 I had thought all emotion
forever dead within me�察�but�察�ah� �how little do we understand ourselves。
Twelve months had not passed�察 �and already I was conscious of a vague
ache ´ a feeling that something�察�I scarcely knew what�察�had gone wrong�察�so
terribly wrong� �I told myself that I was now married�察 �and had a duty
both to my wife and society�察�and I tried hard to ignore the ache�察�on the one
hand�察�and not to permit myself to define and analyse it on the other。 But
a man does not have to understand anatomy in order to break his heart�察�
and so my longing defined itself even by itself。 The old fire�察�built on a
virgin hearth�察 �was far from out。 Society had heaped a mouthful of
conventional ashes upon it�察�but they had served only to preserve it。 From
the fiat of the human heart there is no court of appeal。
One night�察�to my utter amazement�察�I received a letter from Lona which
you will find filed away among my other valuable documents。
It was addressed in her own quaint little hand�察�and I trembled violently
as I opened the envelope。 It was but a brief note�察�and ran as follows�此�
;I am dying�察�and have much to explain before I go。 Be generous�察�and
do not think too harshly of me。 Suspend your judgment until I have
spoken。 You must come by stealth�察�or you will not be permitted to see
me。 Follow my directions carefully and you will have no trouble in
reaching me。 Go at once to the cave on Malabar Hill�察�whistle thrice�察�and
one will appear who will conduct you safely to me。 Follow him�察 �and
whatever happens�察�make no noise。 Do not delay ´ I can last but little longer。
;LONA。;
I did not even pause to re´read the letter�察 �or to ask why it was
necessary to follow such singular directions in order to be led to her。 I
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simply knew she had written to me�察�that she was dying�察�that she wanted
me�察�that was all�察�but it was enough。 Dazed�察�filled with a strange mixture
of dread and yearning�察�I hurried to the cave。 It was already night when I
reached it ´ just such a moonlit night as that on which�察�nearly a year before�察�
Lona and I had planned our elopement�察�and now that heart�察�which then had
beaten so wildly against mine�察 �was slowly throbbing itself into eternal
silence�察 � and I ´ I had been more than dead ever since。
I looked about on all sides�察 �but no human being was visible。 I
whistled thrice�察�but no sound came in response。 Again I whistled�察�with
the same result。 Where was my guide�拭 �Perhaps he was in the cave and
had not heard me。 I entered it to see�察�but had barely passed the narrow
portal when a voice said close behind me�此 �Did you whistle�察�Sahib�拭─ �The
suddenness�察 �the strangeness of this uncanny appearance�察 �so close to me
that I felt the breath of the words upon my neck�察�sent a chill over me。 I
shall never forget that feeling� �Many times since then have I dreamt of a
hand that struck me from out the darkness�察 �while the same unspeakable
dread froze up my life�察�until�察�by repetition�察�it has sunk deep into my soul
with the weight of a positive conviction。 I know�察�as I now write�察�that this
will be my end�察�and his will be the hand that strikes。 The fibre of our
lives is twisted in a certain way�察 �and each has its own fixed mode of
unravelling�察 � this will be mine。
When I had recovered from the first momentary shock I turned and
looked behind me。 There�察�close upon me�察�with his huge form blocking
the narrow entrance�察�stood Rama Ragobah�察�my rival�察�his face hideous with
malignant triumph� �I was trapped�察 �and that�察 �too�察 �by a man whom my
hatred�察 �could it have worked its will�察 �would have plunged into the
uttermost hell of torment。 I felt sure my hour had come�察�but my assassin
should not have the satisfaction of thinking I feared him。 I did not permit
myself to betray the slightest concern as to my position ´ indeed�察�after the
shock of the first surprise�察�I did not care so very much what fate awaited
me。 Why should I�拭 �Had I not seriously thought of taking my own life�拭�
Was it not clear now that Lona�察�whose own handwriting had decoyed me�察�
had most basely betrayed me into her husband's hands�拭 �If I had wished
to end my own life before�察�surely now�察�death�察�at the hands of another�察�was
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no very terrible thing。 Could I have dragged that other down with me�察�I
would have rejoiced at the prospect� �
Ragobah broke the silence。 ;You have left your stick this time�察 �I
see�察─�he said�察�as he unsheathed the long knife I had once before escaped�察�
and ostentatiously felt its edge as if he were about to shave with it。
;You were in haste�察�Sahib�察�when you left me last time�察�or I should not
now have the pleasure of this interview。 Be assured I shall do my work
more thoroughly this time。 Behind you there is a hole partly filled with
water。 If you drop a stone into this well�察�it is several seconds before you
hear the splash�察�and there is a saying hereabouts that it is bottomless。 I
am curious to know if this be true�察�and I am going to send you to see。 Of
course�察�if the story is well founded�察�I shall not expect you to come back。
That would be unreasonable�察�Sahib。;
All this was said with a refined sarcasm which maddened me�察�and�察�as
he concluded�察 �he began to edge stealthily toward me。 So strong is the
instinct of self´preservation within us that I doubt not a would´be suicide�察�
caught in the act of hanging himself�察 �would struggle madly for his life
were someone else to forcibly adjust the noose about his neck。 At all
events�察�I found myself unwilling�察�at the last moment�察�to have someone else
launch me into eternity and�察�as I wished to gain time to think what I should
do to escape�察�I said to him�此�
;Why do you bear me such malice�拭 �Can you not see that any injury I
may have done you was purely in self´defence�拭 �You sought the quarrel�察�
and I took the only means at hand to protect myself。 I did not�察�as you
know�察�seek to kill you�察�a thing I could easily have done�察�but was content
merely to make good my escape。 I ´;
;Bah� ─ �he said�察 �interrupting me savagely。 ;That has nothing to do
with it。 Had you only pounded my head you might live�察 �but you have
pounded my heart� �It is for that I hate you�察�and for that you die� ─�
;What have I done�拭─�I asked。
;What have you done�拭─�he roared�察�furious with rage。 ;I will tell you。
You have by magic possessed the mind of my wife。 Your name�察 �your
cursed name is ever upon her lips� �My entreaties�察�my supplications are
answered by nothing else。 Even in her sleep she starts up and calls for
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you。 You have cast a spell