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Normanshe will be watching for you and news of Margaret。 Give her
all sorts of love from me。〃
Norman fared better with the uncle than he had expected。 Lord
Cosham； as a philanthropist； could not； with any consistency； set his
face against missions； even when the cost came so near home； and he
knew that opposition made the like intentions assume a heroic aspect
that maintained them in greater force。 He therefore went over the
subject in a calm dispassionate manner； which exacted full and
grateful consideration from the young man。
The final compromise was； that nothing should be settled for a year；
during which Norman would complete his course of study； and the
matter might be more fully weighed。 Mrs。 Arnott would probably
return； and bring experience and judgment； which would； or ought to；
decide the questionthough Meta had a secret fear that it might
render it more complicated than ever。 However； the engagement and
the mission views had both been treated so much more favourably than
could have been hoped； that they felt themselves bound to be patient
and forbearing。 As Meta said； 〃If they showed themselves wilful
children； they certainly did not deserve to be trusted anywhere。〃
Lord Cosham made his niece listen to a kind exhortation not to press
her influence towards a decision that might be repented； when too
late to be repaired； without a degrading sense of failureputting
her in mind of the privations that would lose romance by their
pettiness； and which money could not remedy； and very sensibly
representing that the effect of these on temper and health was to be
duly considered as a serious impediment to usefulness。
〃It would be worse for him alone；〃 said Meta。
〃That is not certain；〃 said her uncle。 〃A broken…down wife is a
terrible drag。〃
〃I know it is so；〃 said Meta firmly； 〃but risks must be run； and he
is willing to take the chance。 I do not think it can be presumption；
for； you know； I am strong； and Dr。 May would say if he could not
warrant me。 I fancy household work would be more satisfactory and
less tiring than doing a season thoroughly； and I mean to go through
a course of Finchley manuals in preparation。〃
〃I hope you know what you are doing；〃 sighed her uncle。 〃You see it
all couleur de rose。〃
〃I think not。 It is because it is not couleur de rose that I am so
much bent upon it。 I have had plenty of that all my life。 I expect
much that will be very disagreeable and not at all heroic； but if I
can only make Norman think it fun； that will be one purpose answered。
I do believe he will do his work better for having me； and； at least；
I shall pay his passage。〃
Her uncle shook his head； but did not try to say any more。 George
had begun by loud exclamations against the project； in which he was
vehemently abetted by Tom； who primed him with all sorts of
outrageous abuse of the niggers and cannibals； who would make
Norman's coats out of all shape； and devour little Meta at a
mouthfulpredictions which Meta accepted most merrily； talking of
herself so resignedly； as bound upon a spit； and calling out to be
roasted slower and faster； that she safely conducted off their
opposition by way of a standing joke。 As to Norman's coats； she
threatened to make them herself； and silenced Tom for ever by
supposing； in malicious simplicity； that he must be able to teach her
the most unexceptional cut。
Flora kept her opinions to herself。 Only once； when urged to
remonstrate； she said； 〃I could notI would not。〃
She was gently and touchingly considerate towards the lovers；
silently but unobtrusively obviating all that could jar on their
feelings； and employing her exquisite tact in the kindest manner。
She released Meta from the expedition to Ryde； silencing scruples on
the one hand； by a suggestion of 〃poor Sir Henry；〃 and； on the other；
by offering to exchange her for Mary。 The first proposal made Mary
take such a spring in her chair； with eyes so round； and cheeks so
red； and such a shriek about Harry and the Bucephalus； that no one
could have borne to say one word in opposition； even if it had not
been the opinion of the Council that sea air would best repair Mary's
strength。
Ethel had some private fears of a scene； since it was one of Miss
Bracy's idiosyncrasies to be hurt whenever Mary was taken out of her
hands； and she went to announce the design； in dread lest this shock
should destroy the harmony that had prevailed for many months； nay；
she almost believed； since the loss of the Alcestis had been known。
She was agreeably surprised。 Miss Bracy thought Mary in need of the
change； and discussed both her and Blanche in so pleasant and
sensible a manner； that Ethel was quite relieved。 She partook in
Mary's anticipations of pleasure； forwarded her preparations； and was
delighted with her promise of letterspromises that Mary bestowed so
largely； in the fullness of her heart； that there were fears lest her
whole time should be spent in writing。
Her soft heart indulged in a shower of tears when she wished them all
good…bye； and Ethel and Blanche found the house was very empty
without her； but that was only till Meta came in from a walk with
Norman； and； under the plea of trying to supply Mary's place； did the
work of five Maries； and a great deal besides。
Nothing could be happier than Meta's visit； brightening the house so
that the Mays thought they had never known half her charms； helping
whatever was going on； yet ready to play with Daisy； tell stories to
Aubrey； hear Tom's confidences； talk to Margaret； read with Norman；
and teach Richard singing for his school children。 The only vexation
was； that every one could not always engross her entirely； and Dr。
May used to threaten that they should never spare her to that long…
legged fellow； Norman。
She had persuaded Bellairs to go and take care of Flora and Mary；
instead of the French maida plan which greatly satisfied Margaret；
who had never liked the looks of Coralie； and which Meta held to be a
grand emancipation。 She persuaded old nurse to teach her to be
useful； and Margaret used to declare that she witnessed scenes as
good as a play in her room； where the little dexterous scholar；
apparently in jest； but really in sober； earnest； wiled instruction
from the old woman； and made her experiments； between smiles and
blushes； and merrily glorying in results that promised that she would
be a notable housewife。 Whether it were novelty or not； she
certainly had an aptitude and delight in domestic details； such as
Ethel never could attain； and； as Dr。 May said； the one performed by
a little finger what the other laboured at with a great mind。
In the schoolroom； Meta was as highly appreciated。 She found an hour
for helping Blanche in her music； and for giving； what was still more
useful； an interest and spirit to studies； where； it must be owned；
poor good Mary had been a dead weight。 She enlivened Miss Bracy so
much； and so often contrived a walk or a talk with her； that the
saucy Blanche told Hector that she thought Ethel would be quite
second…fiddle with Miss Bracy。
No such thing。 Miss Bracy's great delight was in having a listener
for her enthusiasm about Miss Ethel。 She had been lately having a
correspondence with a former school…fellow； who was governess in a
family less considerate than the Mays； and who poured out； in her
letters； feelings much like those with which Miss Bracy had begun。
Nothing could be more salutary than to find herself repeating all
Ethel's pieces of advice； and； one day； when her friend had been more
distressed than usual； she called Ethel herself； to consult on her
answer； owning how much she was reminded of herself。
〃Indeed；〃 she added； 〃I am afraid it would only tease you to hear how
much I am indebted to your decision and kindness〃
〃Nay；〃 said Ethel； laughing her awkward laugh。 〃You have often had
to forget my savage ways。〃
〃Pray don't say that〃
〃I think；〃 said Ethel； breaking in； 〃the philosophy is this： I
believe that it is a trying life。 I know teaching takes a great deal
out of one； and loneliness may cause tendencies to dwell on fancied
slights in trifles； that might otherwise be hurried over。 But I
think the thing is； to pass them over； and make a conscience of
turning one's mind to something fresh〃
〃As you made me do； when you brought me amusing books； and taught me
botany〃
〃And； still more； when you took to working for the infant school。
Yes； I think the way to be happy and useful is to get up many
interests； so as to be fresh and vigorous； and think not at all of
personalities。 There's a truism！〃
〃Very true； though；〃 said Miss Bracy。 〃Indeed； all your kindness and
consideration would never have done me half the good they have； dear
Miss Ethel； if you had not taught me that referring all to one's own
feelings and self is the way to be unhappy。〃
〃Just so；〃 said Ethel。 〃It is the surest way for any one to be
miserable。〃
〃If I could only persuade poor dear Ellen to think that even if a
slight were real； it ought to be borne forgivingly； and not brooded
over。 Ah！ you are laughing； perhaps you have said the same about
me。〃
〃You would forg